Down Came The Rain
I have been getting ultra sensitive at every single thing lately. I get upset at the utmost littlest things. At first i thought it was because of pms, and after my period came, this emo-ness dissappeared for a day, hence the last post, but came back like usual. I get upset at things that normally wouldn't bother me at all. I hate feeling this way. And when i'm upset, i get even more upset at myself for it. Sheesh.. What is wrong with me?
Depression is something i never thought would befall upon me. I connect this depression to my upcoming finals. I think i minght have been putting too much pressure on myself, hence the thinking too much which causes me to cry at the most ridiculous things. So wish i could turn off the tap to the tears.
I finally broke down with unwanted tears in front of simon. It got to the point where i told him, i think i need to seek help. I think i need to see a mental doctor and if this continues, i might get checked in to a "happy" institution. He was a sweetie. He just sat beside me and consoled me. Saying all sorts of things like, don't worry baby, everything will be alright. And at one point, i told him don't look at me! I'm a mess! He said, No baby, u look beautiful when you're crying. To which i countered, Oh, so you want me to cry more izzit? Lol.. poor him. I love you. :)
I truly madly deeply hope that this insane emotion of mine will end soon. If not, please endure the moody me with love and patience. :)
6 Comments:
Girl.. stay strong! Stop stressing yourself out. I know you can do it.
Just don't put too much pressure to yourself.. Sorry can't be there for you. Take good care yah.. see you soon, real soon!
babe, take care alright...don so stress...life's full of shits and ur strong enuf to pull them thru..;p spend as much time with loved ones - so u wont feel so bad - well hope to c u soon when i get backs..meantime take care kays, i wont wanna b visiting u at the 'happy instituition' when i get backs...promise?heheh missing ya gal..*hugss*
hey...guess what...
it has happened to me oso lar, k?
and you should know when. it really bothered me so much i didn't even wanna come back to pj. but then actually after some time, u'll find out that it isn't so bad after all! just that i was thinking too much...
keep strong gal! u can do it!
I've been thinking all positively as much as i can.. :)
Reen: Miss you la..hehe. ;p Thanks for the support, and don't you stress yourself up too much too kays. muahhs
Ann: Miss you too la..hehe. Anyways, as long as there're still updated posts here, i'm still free from the grasp of those 'happy' institutions.. ;) take care over there ya? muahhs
Xzan: Yea, our minds are the most dangerous weapons in the world. It can either make or break us. We can do it! heheh.. :)
don't worry girl .. everything's gona be just fine * hugs *
thanks girl! :) hugs
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