Covered by rain clouds

I had a bad dream last night.

Not exactly a scary nightmare per se, but it was mentally and psychologically bad.

I dreamt i only shifted 30 minutes away from home (PJ HOME) to a brand new beautiful house. But i wasn't exactly 'feeling' the place and constantly kept returning home for basic things like - can't really remember its quite fuzzy now. And then i realised that i wasn't happy in this new and pretty place so i packed my things and shifted home to my old but forever comfortable home.

The feeling i felt when i shifted home in my dream was fantastic! I was looking forward to all the things i could do again at home........

..... then i woke up.

And I WAS DEVASTATED!!!!

I kept running through the events in my mind- going home, doing all things at home, forgoing luxuries for home.. This is what i have been feeling this past few months.

I'm pretty sure most of you already know this, but i'm not happy here. This past week, i've been miserable. This affected my job, my mood, my health, my overall well-being.

So much I want to say and rant and complain but this is regarding my career and i dunno if anyone from my company reads this space - if so, hello! I don't know how long can i hold on.. just going through one day at a time right now. Sigh.

I think the best thing to do right now is just to muster a smile and wish for the best outcome.