I'm cracking my head to the hardest! I simply cannot write my speech!! What's this?? I just can't do or write anything if i don't have a title or something that can direct me. That is why i never write statement essays, i always write those that requires me to continue from a sentence or those that requires fictions. I have got all the ideas in me, but i just can't put them into words. This frustrates me so much! Freakin downer!

Oh yea, how does my new template look? Better than the last? It better be! Took me 3 fuckin hours to do it nicely. It better be nicer than the last!
My frustration's killing me! I really need help.

I wanna change the skin of my blog, but yet, am still very stuck on to my old one. Sigh. This has always been the case for me. Everytime i want to change something old of mine to a better and new one, i just don't have the heart to do so. That is why i have all sorts of junks in my place. I'm just weird i guess. Maybe it is my attitude. When i'm comfortable with something, i won't change it and will stick to it. I don't quite fancy the idea of starting something all over and move out of my comfort zone. It is all mainly psychology don't ya think?

Bought the sling bag from Miss Selfridge while on a short shopping trip with shereen and lydia. Gotta start saving and slowing down on my spending before i raise the white flag and declare for a brankruptcy. lolz.

Just came back from a shopping spree in mid valley with liguan. Shopping to your hearts content just makes me super duper haPpy! lol, which girl wouldn't be?
Here's what i spent my *ka-ching!* on :
- two tops from Seed
- two tops from FOS ( a really good bargain, but one top's for my baby)
- a pair of jeans from P & Co
- a sweater from Miss Selfridge
- a bikini bottom to match my bikini top from Topshop
- and lastly, a pair of earings which i absolutely must buy due to the really reasonable price.

Oh yea, and i saw this really cute sling bag from Miss Selfridge, though i'm not sure if it would look nice on me.. hmm, doubts doubts.

I went for dinner with baby last night. Good thing that we did too, coz in that 2 to 3 hours or so, we managed to bond like we have not in a long long time. We talked about everything and managed to clear a few things up about each other. I remember feeling at one moment, that we are more than just a couple, we are actually friends. And that felt nice. =)

Finally, the last days of my job. Me and Liguan were doing tele-marketing for the last 2 days, and now, even the thought of calling someone, sets the alarm ringing. It really is a pests' job, tele-marketing. You call like a few hundred to a thousand people and repeat the same thing over and over again. Can't believe how some people can put that as their profession. Crazy! Actually, i kinda miss the working place. Hmm..i wonder what's muffin doing now? =p

I'm actually in the midst of writing out my speeches for my public speaking course today. And i tell you, writing a speech and worrying bout the time limit is a stressful thing. And you'll wonder if your topic matches the theme. But arh..who cares man, the theme for today is persuasive speech and i'm just gonna blab all that i can think about. So what if it doesn't make sense? As long as it does to me.
Do you know that in a major survey on people's greatest fears, public speaking came out as no.1, while death only came out as no.7? In other words, people would rather die than to go up and talk in front of a crowd! What a joke! haha.. It is not that bad actually, once you get the hang of it.

Didn't go to work today as i really needed to catch up on my beauty sleep! It has been a really hectic 5 days of work so far. Luckily, they kept to their word and gave us, rm80 for each day. Not too bad, not too bad. Wanted to sleep in the whole day, but then decided against it and went to the hair salon to get my hair highlighted and trimmed too. Am really happy at the way my hair is now. At least, it has its shape back and the color came out as i wanted. No more shaggy mop! Well, that's for now. I don't know how it'll look after a few wash. lol.. keeping my fingers crossed! =p

I'm off to go put my remaining hours of my off day to good use, GunBound! =)

toodles!

I've gotten this job with liguan in mca cheras. Have been working for the past two days. A very tiring two days. We had to wake up at 6 in the morn and take a hour journey to cheras and then work from 8 to 8 there, then, take another hours' journey back home. The journey there wasn't exactly relaxing either, we had to take the lrt to masjid jamek, then switch to the star train to maluri. Nvm, the pay was said to be good, rm80 a day. But there has been a misunderstanding there though, it seems that what liguan heard from the agent was different from the mca side, it seems that the mca side only pay rm50. So, i'm crossing my fingers that these bastards don't deny us our hard earned money.

Though, the job is not exactly good. It is a very good experiance for me. I feel. This has exposed me to the political world, not that nice. Plus, i was able to see all sorts of different cases or problems that people has, when they come to make a complain or ask for help at the mca centre. There was this particular woman, who is 59 years of age, and has two very low IQ daughters and a mentally unstable brother. She alone, has to take care of all three of them who can't even work and so on. Really pitiful. It made me realise how fortunate i am to be able to live the way i am living now. It really is an eye-opening experiance for me.

All i'm hoping now, is for the pay to be rm80 and not rm50. More money = more shopping! haha.. =p

Gotten a new tagboard! Feel free to drop in a line or two alritez! =)

Today was spent window shopping with my girlfriends. Walked around and observed alot of very interesting buyable stuffs, and managed to mark down what i wanted. *smirk!*. All i need now, is to plan my money. hmm..

There is this game called GunBound that i have been playing for the past week, it was this game that my sister's boyfriend introduced to her. Not too bad and most of all, it can put your bored and wasted time to good use. It is something like worms and you get to play with people from all over the globe. Kind of addictive though.

My dear lydia, you can always call me to accompany you, you know that! Anyway, do call me when you need someone and even when you don't k. =) *muakz!* Take care babe!

First and foremost, i don't know what the hell happened to my tagboard. It has gone bonkers since..i can't remember when. Well, i thought it would get cured by itself but, to no avail. Sheesh.. Guess, i'll just have to start a new one. Argh.. what a drag!
I have to go for this public speaking course in the noon, it is from 3 to 9.45. It started from last week, and will continue for 7 saturdays. Another bump for me. Gone are the saturdays of fun! Parents, signed up for me, thought it will do good for me in the future as i would be taking public relations and would be talking for the rest of my life. Well, so far it has been good, as long as they don't make me wear funny costumes and perform, it is enough.