A year ago.

I've been preoccupied with online shopping sites lately. VERY preoccupied i should say that it's slowly getting out of hand. I know I know, I am controlling. But a dress or two never hurts right? heh.

Another week and it's May. This will mark one year since I had graduated. It has been quite a journey from then till today, one that I believe have mould me further to become who I am today.

The time when I was freshly out of university, full of eagerness towards jumping into the working world. No fears of the economy or recession or strategizing to achieve high profits, no worries of monitory responsibilities. Untainted by the ugly side of being in the workforce, unguilty of playing office politics to protect yourself, unafraid of bullshitting your way to an A.

How many times have grown ups uttered the sentence, "Enjoy your student life while you can". I understood how good a life it was, but I never fully comprehended the depth of the meaning until now.

I am not detesting working. I like what I am currently doing now. Just that, once in while, during mornings that I am dragging myself out of bed or am suppose to make decisions that involves money, I would think "What I wouldn't give to still be a student".

Especially now, when I would have ample/more flexible time. For L.

To pacify myself, I am thinking back about the nice weekend I had. Full of quality time spent. =)

Four more days to our little runaway.

Hello First Class Honours!

Words cannot express how big a breath a let out when i checked my results earlier. My heart was beating furiously, my breathing was short and hurried, hands shaking- as i typed in my user ID after i've checked PX's and waiting for the page to load, i prayed continuously to whomever up there and around me listening, to let my 3 years of hard work pay off. Glancing up every minute from the keypad to the loading page, hoping that i will see something that will ease my doubts and fears.. finally it loads. Scrolling down with trembling hands, and, I've done it! I've finally f-ing done it! CGPA of 3.61 which equals to a FIRST CLASS HONOURS DEGREE YO!!!

Omg omg omg.

I knew my dad was standing outside somewhat anxiously as i suspect he knew what i was checking when he walked over and saw the website. So i skipped/hopped/jumped to him squealing "YAY!!!! I GOT 1ST CLASS DADDY!!!!" haha.. ran around the house, jumping on the couch beside my grandma, running into my parent's room and squealed the news to her, and then messaged the BF to tell him the good news.

What a weight lifted off me. But i doesn't matter if i can't get a job where i want does it? Nvm.. no to being cynical right now. I should drown myself in this news until the next good news comes along.. hehehe..

CONGRATS TO ME! I wonder if i'll get the 'book prize' (money) from the uni? ;p

Mini update

What have i been up to thus far since my last post? hmm.. let's see.
* Performed in Malacca with igemz. (Yay!)
* Finished 3 final papers, one last paper tmrw.
* Spent time with my family- dad and sis came back for the labour day weekend
* Shopped a teeny weeny lil bit. Bought a RM15 leather shoe. hehehe. Original price was RM169
* Celebrated my sis's and aunt's bday. Happy 24th Tache! and err.. to you too koko. ;p
* Had dinner with my girls after a gazillion years of not dining together

I think that's about it. So little hor? I thought i did more than that.

So, one last one tomorrow and i'm all done with uni. Don't really know how i feel about that, but i have starting sending out my cv to potential companies. Hopefully they reply me and request for interviews. I really hope they WILL reply me. How long do they normally take???

ps: Dear Comm Law, please do not ask for specific cases and just be kind enough to allow for illustrated ones.

Eeee... they saved the worst for last.

The War

...starts now!

this is the first time i am feeling so unprepared and yet so chilled a few hours before my paper commences.

what the f is wrong with me?

emo sial!

Yesterday i attended the last two classes i would ever have as an undergrad in utar. And after handing up my final year project on tuesday, and sitting for four papers till 6 May, i will be officially done with this factory building i call my education home for 3 years. 3 f-ing years, with the same lecture halls, first floor with the coldest temperature in the entire building, blue carpets, plastic tables and chairs, same coursemates, tutorialmates, groupmates, breaks at the cafeteria and mamak, all the conflicts and dramas..

..is coming to an end.

I was feeling particularly low the past week. It was a mixture of reasons, one being in denial. Leaving the comforts of all i had in this 3 years and moving ahead towards uncertainty- work, postgrad studies, etc. Moreover, it is the thought of not being able to waste precious lecture hours doing nothing producting and talking away at the back of lecture halls with all of you.. hehe. i will definitely miss our belum-insaf moments. :)

There are so many things i want to say, but i just cant seem to express them. Leaving me with the only words of, 'ahh.. so emo!' hehe. During that 3 years, new friends were made, some friends were kept for good and some lost along the way. Nonetheless, i just want to tell each and everyone of you whom i have had the fortune to cross paths with- thank you and i appreciate and value our time and experiences shared together.

PX- omg, i dunno what my uni days would be like without you. Seriously! You kept me sane by listening patiently to all my furious complaints and uplifted my spirits during stress out moments by just talking cock together. Most importantly, you and fei introduced me to so many new realms of lameness, im afraid normalcy may prove hard to come back. haha. all the 'cold' jokes...

It will take more than this post for me to fully express my feelings at this ending of a chapter, so i won't go anymore than this. Just that i hope all who knew and know me have enjoyed my presence as much as i have enjoyed theirs. And also, all the best and study hard for this last leg of our race before we move on to another type of rat race. Which we may not like as much.. eek!

and i go through my days with smoke coming out of my ears

It's been a busy busy week! And 'busy' hasn't passed yet. :( I have 2 group assignments and 1 individual final year project due this week; 1 presentation on monday, and another group assignment due next friday.

I'm not so worried about my group assignments, my groupmates of 3 years boleh punya! And also because of the extended dateline after we had almost finish our parts. It's the FYP that i'm worried. Our word limit for this whole research project is 8,000 - 10,000 words. It may look alot, but in actual fact, i feel it is just enough. I am still in my chapter four - analysis and i've already written 6k plus of words. Not forgetting that i still need to add more information to chap 1 - 3, and do my chap 5- conclusion and recommendation. Trying hard to limit my words while including all necessary information at the same time. HARD!

My moods been very fiery this few days. I'm pissed at so many things... but mostly im pissed at people being so dependant on me. I feel suffocated. It's not wrong for some to depend on me, but i just feel so frustrated. I can't explain why really.

I guess i just want to be treated as a little girl rather than an adult. :( In denial.

And that stupid uni hasn't replied me!!! It's been 3 days! :( i know i know... so short a time, give it more time.. but the dateline has already passed! Even if you don't want to consider giving me that leeway of applying at least reply me and tell me right anot? Where got ppl who talk about having all those education and integrity dunno this simple thing of courteousness? Where's your courtesy la?? PX go educate them!

:(

Three whole days, and i'm still at my analysis part of my FYP. If there's any award that i should win, it's the procrastinating award. I convinced myself that i will have time to finish it by thursday, so i waste my time before that by surfing websites, watching videos, tv..

I'M SO PISSOFF!!!!

read me the story of all

So i've been in a dilemma for quite a while now- to work or to further my studies? The choice has been bugging me ever since the start of the year. I'm not sure as to which is more suitable for me, coz right now, i really do feel that both suits me best. But for the wrong reasons.

What i meant by wrong reasons is, either choice i make, study or work, will be made for reasons that are not quite appropriate. To work- i'll have more financial independance. SHOPPING! but less free time. Making my transition (move to spore) an abrupt one with little time to give in to homesickness. To study- Better future, more spare time, can come home often, chill often, but less money. The starting pay for a degree holder in Sg is SD2k plus. And the starting pay for a masters degree holder is SD3k plus. I know, what do i still have to think rite? heh

Actually, i've made a decision. As the Masters degree at the uni i wanna apply to starts in Aug i think i will try to see if i can make it for that intake, and if i can get in. But the setback is that the dateline for the submission of application is at March 6. So, yeah. I'm like one week late. And one of the requirements is to provide my degree certificate which i have yet to have coz i've not graduated and my convo will most probably only be in August. I think. So how?

My decision is that, i will email the uni and enquire to see if i am eligible even with my undergrad status and the way overdue submission. If i am, i'll be a post grad student in Aug. If i'm not, i gotta find a job...

I consulted my uncle who deals with tarot cards with this question. And the cards told me going to work will only be a game for me. It's like something that i'm doing for fun. (eek) So i should better go back to studying. LOL!

My parents especially my dad has always been pro-further studies. He even cut out a newspaper article advertising the Masters programme in that uni last year!

I was telling simon last night, i feel like my life after my degree is a blank. I have no idea what i want to do and i have no idea what's in store for me.

Any suggestions or advice ppl?

Chasing my own tail

I am supposed to be studying.. what with all the extra time that i have for only 2 subjects. But what am i doing? I am surfing crunchyroll and mtv online for videos. And not forgetting, GG. Aiyayayayai!

It's always like that during exam periods. I get so excited about my holiday escapades after my finals that i lose focus on my papers. Finals is on 12 & 14 Dec, and i'll be leaving for Vietnam on the 19 - 23 Dec, followed by Singapore from 24 Dec till 4 Jan.

I keep thinking about the crazy shopping in Vietnam and boxing day in Spore! Omg. How to focus on The History of PR in Malaysia and PR Campaign Planning and Management?

Moreover, i think i need a haircut. My hair is starting to make me look like a school girl, coz the ends are puffing and curling in, and the hair at the back is longer than the sides. Hmm.. cut now, and two weeks later, it'll look nice just in time for my escapades.

After i've chopped my mane off to the length it is now, i feel like i look so much fresher and more 'awake' than i do with heavy long hair. More so, i look younger and feel taller. But, recently i've received some comments about me looking more matured with this new hairstyle. Do I?

Sigh, it's these little no brainers that keeps me occupied during my study week. I wanted to go out so badly to cure my itching heart for some window shopping but luckily my uncle came back from UK so i had to stay home. Suddenly, it hit me. It is almost a year that my maternal grandmother had passed away. How time flies. It doesn't fly, it zaps past you and the next thing you know, you're knitting for your 30th grandchild. My oh my.

I think I'll pass out when my 30th grandchild comes along. haha.. My maternal grandmother is damn power! 40 grandchildren plus 15 great grand children and she remembers ALL their name. I don't even remember what i ate last night, let alone all the names! Sheesh. That's what i call, power.

This post is damn random, yes. I just need to verbally vomit all the unnecessary words and vocabs in my brain so that i can make way for more important informations. Hehe, or so i convince myself la.

Anyway, i'm selling some of my bajus online to earn more moolah so i can buy more clothes! The wheel of fortune. heheheh

Click here to view them. :)

Please Excuse Me....

while i go deep fry what's left of my remaining brain cells.

Yesterday's paper was a killer. I think i threw away 35 marks just like that because of time constraint.

I WANNA DIE!! :(

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nah.. i'll get over it.

no more first class that's all.

Ads for flabs

I seem to have some unresolved issues with fitness centres that two advertising subjects out of four, i have to work on fitness centres. One year ago it was Cali F, and this semester, it's Celeb F. What man.. And it's damn hard to advertise creatively based on a service. Boo!

And each time we conduct researches at the fitness centres, we have to be subjected to all those talks about "it is actually this much, but if you join, i'll give you this price" etc. Not forgetting the "yes..your focus should be at the abdominal area".. Walaoeh. I know la. :( But this time, i am feeling more gungho about working out and toning my flabby areas. Teehee. See la, gotta do some research on my own. ;p

Not forgetting that each and everyone in the group must come up with 30 - 35 ad ideas for this ad campaign. 30 ads EACH! That's only for one week. We got two weeks of idea development tutorials, so all in all, almost 70 ads per person in two weeks. All together now, "SIAO ar??!?"

Sadly, it's the truth. Siao or no siao, it has to be done. And the first thing that needs to get out of the existing ad campaign, is their spokesperson. Ok, lets be critical here, how can you choose a spokesperson with no toned limbs and abs? tsk tsk. Look closely at her ads, and you'll see that flabby bulge that isn't supposed to be on a spokesperson for a fitness centre.

OK! Enough about fitness centres. I will be heading out to Actors Studio with my parents in a while to watch some show. One night, my parents just asked if i am free on sunday, thinking that i won't have anything specific to do, i said yea, and chopchop the tickets were bought. Leaving me still without an idea what i'm watching later. So it's more sitting down and accumulating wealth in my mid area whilst still not working out. Haha. Life's good.

Oh, and it has been a week already, and Oscar's still not home.. :(

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::Edit::

Menoupause the Musical is good! Lol.. Great to bring your moms to watch, it's also a great girlfriends outing too! Get a bunch of your girls and watch it. But, it better suits old-er ladies. hehe.

Whiny #3

One week to do an assignment that requires research and review.

One week- it was given on friday and until now, i don't even know where is it moving towards. How la?

Anyone know anything about Taylor's Scientific Management Theory?

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It sucks when you know you don't have enough time to do your work and yet, your mind and body refuses to coorporate. Like now. I'm clicking away at solitaire with my work spreaded out in front of me. Unfinished. bahhhhh!

I foresee it to be spring time for my face starting from now. :(

Back to Books!

First week of class have since come and gone, and as expected, assignments are all thrown to us by the lecturers. Thankfully, i still have the motivation in me to actually want to do it, do my tutorial work and do some research. I want to.. just not actually doing it yet. Procrastination is a powerful devil..

I am trying to do as much right now albeit none of it being productive, to resist plomping into bed wandering off to somewhere else. Slumber hasn't been coming to me easily this few nights. Since the first day of class i should say, which is actually a week and a half ago.. My body and head feels super tired, but when i close my eyes readying myself for sleep, my mind continues to be active, thoughts wandering everywhere, conversations with myself will ensue fiercely, and all i end up with instead of a deep rejuvenating slumber, is a strained head. -_-

And i have classes at 8am everyday except for today which starts at 930am. Not much difference le.

How la to be fresh for class like that? hehe.. but i've been a good girl by going to every single lecture and tutorial! Not only that, my notes are all written with extra information that only comes from listening in class.

I will persevere! and keep up this good behaviour of mine. haha

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I cannot seem to run away from this secretary position can i? From personal assistant cum secretary cum pr executive cum pr manager during my internship to secretary for the upcoming 'personal safety campaign'?

Can i be a sexetary instead?? ;p